having grown up in 'the word' in a very loving and normal family, certain aspects of the truth never really sat right with me.
as an impressionable 17 year old, the things i was learning during my study seemed bizarre & in many ways, just not right.
but i swallowed it all eventually.
so many people on meds. none of my worldly friends or colleagues are on anti depressants, - any ex witness ones are, and so many witnesses still in I have lost count.
you know, with a lifestyle that's so far from ordinary & out of whack from general society, it is clearly no wonder at all why the average Witness goes looney tunes.
im working on my exit strategy out of the watchtower org.
ive set my mind to be out by the end of 2010 or mid 2011. .
id like to avoid getting df and disassociating my self is also an undesirable option.
yes, the control from the society/congregation is oppressive & stifling. but, after hearing the testimony of Cal Lehman on podcast, it can give one clues on how to do a successful fade. as mentioned earlier, each one's situation is unique & different in some way. the key ingredient is to keep an extremely low profile, & do as little as possible with the congregation.
my goal someday, i don't know what year it will be, but i intend to celebrate Xmas to the full extent.
i have a concern i guess or just want to vent.
my husband and i - as most of you know - we're married just a little under 2 months and you all know at that point i was still "active" in the org.
we had a few issues with our bridal party - namely the groom - cuz according to them he wasnt a good example and not in good status because they hadn't seen him at the meetings or in service for like 2 months.
yes, you're life will be hell, miserable
i have a concern i guess or just want to vent.
my husband and i - as most of you know - we're married just a little under 2 months and you all know at that point i was still "active" in the org.
we had a few issues with our bridal party - namely the groom - cuz according to them he wasnt a good example and not in good status because they hadn't seen him at the meetings or in service for like 2 months.
to be quite honest, in the Witness mindset, plain & simple, if you're a brother & not qualified to carry a microphone, you're a bad example.
ok so i know theres way more than just 2, but heres 2 that i could never figure out:.
belief 1) jehovah is trying to prove his right to rule by allowing saturn a chance to do better/fail.
this means extensive trauma for all humans as they suffer and die, basicly innocent vitums of this.. belief 2) in the paradise the bad memories of living in this saturns system will bewiped.. so i ask you: what is the point of belief number 1 if all those years of proving saturn wrong will no longer be remembered?
Saturn did fail ... it was bought by General Motors.
Undercover, great minds think alike!
LOL
i received a message on my telephone voice mail by a person who attended a jehovah's witness assembly this past weekend.
i believe the assembly was in michigan.
the caller told me it was announced from the platform that if a person is not attending the meetings on a regular basis active witnesses should not be associating with them.
''It would be so unlike JC to avoid those who need the help.''
that's exactly my point. i remember leaving after the watchtower study sometimes with this empty feeling inside me. ''this organization is run by Christ Jesus''. then after hearing comments from the study about keeping away from spiritually weak ones, to avoid these people. that is the seed that was planted that led to my way out the back door.
i received a message on my telephone voice mail by a person who attended a jehovah's witness assembly this past weekend.
i believe the assembly was in michigan.
the caller told me it was announced from the platform that if a person is not attending the meetings on a regular basis active witnesses should not be associating with them.
if a person is not attending the meetings on a regular basis active Witnesses should not be associating with them.
&
should "mark" those who don't attend meetings or do field service very often
&
Witnesses were to "watch their associations", not only with worldly people, but also around 'certain' members of "Gawd's Organization" who weren't as ardent
I dont' know, but it was always these statements or attitudes that always discouraged me & put me down a wayward path from the BORG. For an organization that brags to be so Christlike, with this kind of sentiment, they couldn't be anymore unChristlike.
i was suspossed to go to the meeting today, gotta to keep up the pretense in order to facillitate my fade.
instead i had nice lie in, i visited my non-witness dad, and then met up with my first aspostate from this site mr. majestic.. i didn't want to go to the meeting because meetings make me angry, i can now see the techniques used to control the congregation by fear.
i can't stand the thought that so many good people are being fed a banquet of lies and deception.. i could so easily never attend again..
if you continue to try to fade, what you should do during the occasional meeting you may go to, is to at all possible costs & discomfort is to avoid going to the washroom if you can totally avoid it. usually there is some elder in there or someone else who is snoopy & may try to question you. but try to avoid going to the can if it isn't extremely necessary.
Just being a Witness is quite enough to drive the most sane person to an extreme sate of depression.
i was watching steve martin "leap of faith" pg rated mind you with some witnesses.
he plays a fake faith healer.
their were a couple swear words, and the brothers asked me to switch it off.. same thing happened with christine applegate movie {pg 13} "don't tell mom the babysiters dead.
YES & there are many, many more i can think of. Pretty Woman for instance, was forbidden by some families because Julia Roberts was acting as a prostitute. GHOSTBUSTERS, just mentioning that movie would cetainly turn a few heads at a table & some killing stares. And of course Ghost, a really nice story, but scorned upon because it promoted immortality of the soul
